Pity on those who think I give a fuck.
Lately I've been fighting with myself.
Eating away at me I feel so weak so fucking petty.
And I have no idea on what to do and its a pity, a tragedy, a real damn disgrace and..
Oh, they keep on pulling at me.
Why won't they just, just let me be.
And the pressures a bitch. This indecision is keeping me down in a rut.
And in my head, a war is waging. Between what I've always wanted and more.
And in this life, there is no purpose. So whats the point in trying anymore?
And in this life, a war is waging. There's no relief until we've passed.
There's no peace until I'm fucking dead.
I can't keep rotting into this vast sea of doubt. So eager but unsure for as to whats to come.
I keep on fighting, clawing deep into myself. Digging to peel back the worries that cloud my mind.
And it seems I have a change of heart on the matter.
And whats its like to be a petty fuck? I ask myself..
There I go, rotting, festering.
I don't know what to fucking do.
released August 8, 2013
all rights reserved